addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
everything's made to be broken
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
cos i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be b r o k e n
i just want you to know who i am
and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
-----------------------------------------------
wake up feeling like you shouldn't have.
feeling like....
you just wished that you never woke up.
never ever....
every pulse is just torture.
you pretend nothing happened.
why?
maybe i don't care anyway.
you think you're right.
maybe you are.
so perhaps i am the useless idiot afterall.
perhaps....
laugh.
so that you can forget why you wanted a way out.
laugh so hard,
that you can hide the tears.
just laugh.
so that for that moment, you're actually smiling.
but when it's all over,
and that mask comes off.
the tears just roll.
memories flood back.
so vivid.
i can't hide.
when i missed getting knocked down by just an inch.
but, i wanted to have been an inch closer.
can still hear the car...zooming past.
when i crossed the finish line.
knowing that it was all over.
just
f l o o d i n g my mind.
crumbling into pieces.
everything's going so wrong.
you don't understand.
forgotten who i am.
forgotten what i am.